This is not the time

The Apprentice always makes me feel so motivated. For a little while at least. I would love to be challenged like this. Love to build up my CV so that people can look at it and be impressed. I understand that I've got to create this opportunities for myself, that they are not going to come looking for me.

Last English exam tomorrow. I need to go to bed and look through poems of culture, but I am, true to my nature, really excited about writing to describe. Though it does bug me how the examiners give really shit things to describe, like "describe a sinister street." My imagination kind of deteriorated as I grew older. I'd much rather describe something real. "Describe a feeling," or "describe a person you look up to" or anything where you can actually show your talents without feeling closed off from possibilities. Fingers crossed.

Mum is wanting me to take a Spanish girl around England all summer. I'm toying with the idea, especially as I'd get paid, but also... it's kind of a bummer. I was looking forward to spending time with my friends and hopefully enjoying the weather. I'm way too scared of her being dull and quiet.

Still don't know what to take at college. It's gonna creep up on me and I'm still going to have no idea.
English Lit, History, Business, Law?
I'd boss it.