Control Yourself.

Take only what you need from it.

I'm fed up. Utterly.
I've had enough of everything.
I've had enough of my friends, my family, my life, school. Nothing is going my way, and whenever anything seems to be going my way it lasts for a minimal amount of time and then fucks up so it's so much worse than it was previously.
I'm giving up, it is time to let go and I do need to do it before I actually drive myself insane. I can feel his name bubbling up at my lips whenever I talk to anyone, and some people tolerate it, but I'm not. I'm bored. I'm fucked off for getting like this again. I'm worried and I shouldn't be, because I shouldn't care.
I have work to do but I can't be bothered, two more school days and it's half-term and I can sleep until the afternoon and do work then. However, I feel like consuming alcohol every night for a 7 day period of time.

Sixteen two weeks tomorrow.

Fuck it. I'm going out.