erase

I hate this feeling. And although your not on my mind as much as you have been recently, it's still here on my conscious. I want to erase you because I don't believe anymore, in myself, in anything, because of you. I blame you. I wish you could see how much you have hurt me, because I want you to feel guilty. I want an apology, but I don't think you'll understand why. I understand that it's not really your fault, but I want you to realise just what you have done and feel remorse. I will get over you, and soon. I just hate you so much right now and I'm not even sure why.

Perhaps it's just easier.
I dreamt about you again last night. It's driving me insane.


I'm going to a play tonight. I am going to put vodka in my drink and see if my friends notice when I get drunk.