I got the right to put up a fight,

But not quite cause you cut off my light.
But my sight is better tonight, and I might
See you in my nightmares,
Oh but how did you get there?
Cause we were once a fairytale,
But this is farewell.

See you in my Nightmares - Kanye West feat. lil wayne

Mate, I'm actually in love with Kanye. Too cool to put into words.
His new stuff is better, but his old stuff was pretty damn good.

How my mind changes. One moment I can be convinced of something. Wonder if I'll ever get over something, the next I'll wonder what the fucking deal was. Why was I so hung up?
I hate wasting my time.
The last 3 months of my life is suddenly a complete waste of my time.

I really want my nose pierced, but my parents have forbidden me. I think that if I actually pierce my nose they would actually go skits. I'll refrain for now and fight that impulsive urge that really wants to do it anyway. I also really want to dye my hair, I want to go blonder. Like Stefani blonde. I think my mum prefers this idea to sticking a piercing through my nose, but not much more. I need my hair cut. It literally hasn't been cut since before I went to America in July. Very uncool of me, I don't really care if I don't have the latest bangs.

Last night I finished Twilight. This is actually a major happening in my weekend. I just read and read until finally I looked up, finished, after what felt about half an hour to realise I'd spent 3 solid hours reading. Then I stayed up until about 3 in the morning reading New Moon, I only got about a 5th of the way through. I think I read slowly. I feel slightly retarded.

Hm... I'm so happy to be honest. I know I have no reason to be happy. My weekend is dire, my parents must think I have zero social life when really I'm just soaking in this whole relaxing weekend thing for as much as I can absorb. I can't wait for the next few weeks. MJ's party next weekend, I still have nothing to wear though. I can't believe I keep on forgetting about Bloc Party! Then, one weekend me and Becky are going off to Blackpool for the day. I can't fucking wait. I haven't been to Blackpool in forever, I'm just looking forward to seeing the sea and sitting on wet sand in the cold with fish and chips and wasting my change in arcades.

Eeeee. Tomorrow. Manchester United vs. Chelsea. Football is important!

I hate boys. Edward broke Bella's heart, oui? I know he's coming back though. I regret that I kind of researched Twilight and wanted to learn so much about each character that I know what happens to everyone. I know that they eventually have a kid and that Bella eventually becomes a vampire. I've kind of ruined the whole thing for myself. Ah well.
Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second
hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in
strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me.