2009 ftw.

Another New Year's Eve.

I find it so stupid that people need to have New Year's Eve as a new start. I could quite easily use any other date on the calender for a New Start but I guess there is a psycological thing with New Year and resolutions that gives people an excuse to wait until New Year. However, despite this, in 2009 I really want to stick to my resolutions and generally improve my whole life. Most important this year is my studies. I actually want to geek up completely, especially in the first 6 months when I have my exams. I'm going to actually start reading aswell, starting with Twilight as soon as I receive it from waterstones! I'm going to spend less time on the internet blogging, IMing, perezhilton-ing or watching Levi Beamish or Chris Leben (or other boys with equally nice voices) on youtube, which I seriously do all the freakin' time.
I want to meet a nice guy who's not going to fuck things up for me. But I'm also kind of off boys at the moment, and I think the thought of a nice boyfriend overcomes the reality and hassle of relationship problems, which I could do without for my exams. Out of the two who I've had this year, one of them was a waste of space and I shouldn't have spent so long with him and the other was perfect up until the point I realised he was actually insanely impulsive. Like unhealthily I-want-this-I-will-get-this or in my case I-wanted-you-after-20-minutes-of-knowing-you-but-now-I've-met-your-best-friend-half-an-hour-ago-I've-decided-I-want-her-more-so-I'm-just-going-to-break-your-heart-even-though-she-doesn't-even-want-me. And recently I've realised if things had worked out with him, I only would have been driven crazy by that stupid stubborn streak he aquired and the frustrating unreliability he had, I think they would have over shadowed that beautiful voice and amazing sense of humour I miss so much! I think I've finally realised perhaps that not taking it any further was for the best.
And as for the friends I've made, I've built up a relationship with a girl who actually completes me. She understands me like no one else and this year she has become one of the best friends that I've ever had. I feel lucky to have her in my life. I could blog about the other people I've met, but they don't compare to her. Love you Bec.
As for good 2008 times, going to Wembley to see Stockport County promoted to League 1 was the best day of my whole entire life, not to mention the year. Going to Belgium and France was a life changing experience where I learnt so much and understood the sacrifice made by men of our country in the first world war. I will never forget how it affected us all. And I have mustered some self-confidence in the fact that I flew across the world to America to see my pen pal, by myself. It was an amazing couple of weeks. Hmm... and what else? Nottingham. Drunken nights. Growing close to old friends over cigarettes. Let's face it, I spent the last few months of 2008 in my bed watching Sex and the City, which, if you ask me, is time well worth spent.

So in 2008 I realised I was truely happy. For the first time in forever, and except for this minor blip in the last few months where I've been plunged into a hole and never wanted to come out, I've realised how to get out of it, and I'm going to be happy. I'm freakin' 16 in 56 days. In 9 months I start college, a total new start. It's going to be good. I feel it in my bones.

Happy New Year:)